I am Devon West, 24 years old, and I have Aspergers. Life can be rough and there are places of uncertainty at times, but God is always there for us no matter what we are going through.
I fight lots of things daily in my personal life. I have anxiety, fear of what other’s think about me, fear of stepping out of my comfort zone, and much more.
Life recently, has been very hard for me. I moved out and way from home for the first time, for a prolonged period of time. 2 years or longer. I am going back to college to get my Associates Degree as a Computer Support Specialist. I had fought the battle of feeling lonely and not fitting in and not having anyone to talk to, missing friends and family, etc. Then, my life started to change as I started watching Jamie Grace on YouTube and things fit in my life circumstances at those very moments.
I am learning lots, being on my own, going to college, and just living my own life (not someone else’s). First, I learned that I don’t have to worry about fitting in. And it is true, I made friends and a Theatre Family all without even trying on my part. God put me here and He knew who were the right friends for me. Second, was being bold. I have a hard time with this one because I have a huge lack of self confidence. I am however taking steps to become more bold in my journey of college life.
I will be starting conversations with friends, instead of them starting conversations. I will be giving a speech in front of my Theatre Family and that will be hard for me to do. And, hopefully much more. I am ready to become a bolder and braver me.
Living with Aspergers has taught me that life can be very lonely without friends. And if I don’t jump in on the action, it can also be pretty boring at times. Ever since I had seen what Jamie Grace lives with, I knew that I was not the only person that struggles. I am no longer letting my past hold me back and define who I am in Christ. I am going to live a happy life from here on out! For those that are also struggling with what I have. Here is a word of advice from me, “Just Do It”. Don’t hesitate, just go for it – as long as it is the right thing to do.
Remember, it is better to suffer for doing good, if that is what God wants, than to suffer for doing wrong! – 1 Peter 3:17 (NLT)
God Bless and Thank You for letting me take the first step in overcoming my problem(s)!! I’m a Fighter, are You a Fighter?!