When i was a young child my mom and dad split apart. They both re-married. I had lived with my mom until i was 13 years old.
My mom physically and mentally abused me. Everyday i had dealt with depression and not feeling good enough and not thinking that I was what God wanted. That I was a mistake to be on the earth.
I didn’t find God until I was 13 years old. In the time in between only my music kept me alive. Singing and cd’s were my get away..
When i found God i was in a closet fearing for my life on the phone with my dad crying and ready for him to come get me. I was terrified of what my mother would do to me when she got home. My mom has a short temper and sometimes she takes it to far.
That night just prayed and that night i moved with my dad. I still to this day am terrified inside of someone hurting me. I cannot trust my dad even because of what my mom did…
I wrote a song about trying to get over my mom and what she did but God is always there. And i fight every day to keep myself alive through tough days and through even the good ones that satan tries to ruin.
I still deal with depression and i easily slip back into it when i don’t feel good enough. And i am still coming to realize that i’m a whole new person.. and one day God will use me.. either as a singer or an evangelist. But i know that even though I fight everyday, God is in the fight with me.