I found out I was pregnant when I was 15.
At the time, I didn’t have God in my life. I was in church before I found out I was pregnant, but I stopped going because I didn’t want to disappoint anyone, but the biggest person I had disappointed was God. I was lost and didn’t know how I was going to raise a child. I had been staying with friends of mine since about 14 yrs. old. My mom and dad were both alcoholics and my dad abused me as a little girl. Not being able to take care of myself and always counting on my friends, I was so scared to bring a baby into this world.
I told my mom and dad, and my dad sort of stepped up but he was still drinking… he was older and disabled so I ended up moving back in with him to help out. I dropped out to take care of my daughter, but I couldn’t focus on school at home, so I went back, only to find that I couldn’t focus there either. I discovered through counseling later that I was suffering from Postpartum depression. I ended up addicted to pills…. 2 years behind in school… and I had my daughter taken from my custody. That was when I woke up and I decided to get help.
It took me a year of parenting classes and drug tests to get her back, but I did.
I went back to church (Welaka Baptist) and I was saved, I rededicated myself. I continued my counseling sessions and though I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) I know it’s nothing but God that I no longer need to take my medication for it.
I am currently studying to get my GED in February of 2014, I am getting my CNA too, all through the high schools GED Exit program where they pay for all the tests. I was also just accepted into college! I’m going to study Crime scene Investigation, and work as a CNA to get me through college. I plan on transferring to another university my second or third year of college, a Christian School, I would love to have some opportunities they offer, like missionary trips.
My daughter and I are still staying with friends and I am still looking for a job and a car so I can take care of us on my own. But God has a big plan for me, and I just Trust him and hang on to His word. Jamie Grace has a HUGE impact in my life, I look to her music to cheer me up when I find myself getting down, I feel like God has called me to sing, I am having my guitar fixed, and I am learning to play. 🙂