The photo above is of myself and my best friend 🙂
Since my freshman year of high school, I have struggled with anxiety. It started off as little stress with school work but the stress built up over a long period of time and became consistent. I would have panic attacks during school and I wasn’t able to handle it on my own. That’s when I decided I wanted help. And with success, my counselor has helped me so much. She helped me realize fear is a bully, the things I thought were so awful and terrible aren’t really as bad as I thought they were. I was able to get out of the rut I was in my freshman. Summer came around and yeah, it was still there but I enjoyed that summer so much. It was the best summer ever.
Sophomore year came around and I rocked my first semester. I knew what my methods were to help me when anxiety knocked at my door. I’m not going to lie, I let it get the best of me at times. Then midterms came around and my anxiety was worse than ever. Negative thinking overwhelmed my mind. It was such a rocky road for me for a good three months. And my asthma was the least of my worries until this new asthma medication I was taking exacerbated my anxiety and I began to feel like I was going crazy, I couldn’t sleep, and feared life basically. Divine Intervention saved my life from it… Within a week, I was off that medication and it took a good two weeks for me to get back to myself. I hated the wait until I felt better, but it was worth it.
Times will come up when my anxiety brings me down and crushes my spirit, but I know what’s really important, and to remember the times I’ve gotten through it with my best friend, family, and God are key. God has been my complete and utter strength throughout these last few months. I know my worth and my purpose and what I deserve. A man died on a cross to give me this life.
I want to thank my best friend Jackie and my family for being my support team and co-strength throughout all of this.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” (Philippians 4:6)
“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” (1 Peter 3:3-4)
For anyone else who is struggling with anxiety, don’t let go of your faith. It is what keeps you going strong. Stay near to the Lord. He will give you rest.
I’m a Fighter.