God Is Turning Things Around: A “Mess” Into a “MESSage”, a “Test” Into a “TESTimony”, and a Trial” Into a “TRIumph”…
“How am I going to make it?”
“What is my future going to be like?”
“How is this going to effect me?”
“How can anything good come out of this?”
These are the question I used to ask myself as I faced some of life’s recent challenges… alone. Or so I used to think I was alone.
My name is Alissa Marie Adams. I am a 15 year old teen in Christ. My fight is not an illness but it does effect me to this day and trust me when I say it is a fight.
I grew up in a somewhat large family with my parents, an older sister and two younger brothers. I am the only Christian in an agnostic family. Now that I look back, I don’t know how I eventually turned out the way I did. I guess God somehow turned me to just the right people who eventually led me to Him.
I wasn’t always a “good” Christian though. It wasn’t until very recently that I finally gave my life to Christ.
It all started back in 2008 when I started to lose my faith and I was more agnostic than Christian. Before then, I was only 10 and younger so I believed what I was told. And I was told that there was a God in heaven with Jesus by some friends so that’s what I believed. But I didn’t know Him like I should have. I only knew about Him. Soon, I found myself losing faith.
Fast forward to 2010. I began to attend church with my friends. We didn’t attend regularly either. Like kids, we only attended when we were told or when something fun was going on.
Well in 2012, something fun was going on, so if course we went. On April 16th, 2012, our church invited the Oswald Brothers Band, or more commonly known as OBB, to play at our church. This night was the beginning of something new.
When I arrived with my friends, we were about 30 minutes early, so we sat down quietly and watched the boys practice and sound check. And we got to talk to them. I noticed something different about them that I hadn’t seen in anyone else. Or atleast not in the combination. Not like this. They were kind, joyful and humble. I can honestly say I never knew what humble looked like before I had met them. It fascinated me and I wanted what they had.
So I found the source and the source was Jesus.
This was only the beginning. Our church saw them a couple more times that year. This really got the fire going in my heart.
Well, let’s just say this fire was quickly extinguished. I was put through things that I never imagined would happen. I was persecuted for being a Christian by my own father and peers from school. You may be thinking “what’s the big deal? This happens everyday. Just handle it.” Right? This was different. I had JUST renewed my faith. I was definitely not yet strong in my faith and when I was put down or told that there was no such thing as God, I began to believe them. There was another problem: my parents were planning to file for divorce and I was soon feeling hopeless and I was frustrated with God. I didn’t understand why He was going to let my family fall apart. My agnostic past was becoming more present than I ever wanted.
In the Summer of 2013 I went to Summer Games Georgia for the first time. For the first time at this camp, I accepted Jesus into my heart. Really accepted Him. And for the first time in my life, I found the humbleness that I had seen and felt in the Oswald brothers.
In October 2013, my mom was diagnosed with a brain tumor. This hit our family hard because my dad’s job is on the line, which means there is hardly money for treatment and if my dad loses his job, we may have to move. If we have to move, he is going to Afghanistan to work. Now that I have overcome my religious battle, the war of my life and future has broken out. I’m still fighting this war but just recently I have realized that it is not my war to fight: its God’s. He is in control.
The only thing I’m fighting for now is finding happiness in all of this. It took me up until this past weekend to find the key. The key to happiness is thankfulness. And that’s what I was missing all along.
My name is Alissa Marie Adams and I am a fighter.